Sheep farmer Angus McGillivery says he can still hear the desperate cries of his sheep as he fled with his family through smoke and flames on St Patrick's Day last year, only just making it out in time themselves.
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Driven by the wildfire, his flock of 1000 headed to the gate where they would usually waiting for Mr McGillivery to let them through.
But this time there was no escape and that's where he found them the next day.
The inferno took his home and his livelihood that night as well as his faithful friend Bert, the border collie. "He died watching us go," he said.
The loss of all but 60 of 1000 sheep hit hard. To the McGilliverys they weren't just animals, they were like family.
"They become really dependent on us," he said. After all, some farmers spend more time with their animals than their wives and kids, he said.
Mr McGillivery said it would take years to build up his livestock again, although he said of the 60 ewes that survived nearly all have had ewe lambs. "I feel really blessed about that. Normally it's 50/50. So we're thrilled."
Despite all that he has been through, Mr McGillivery said he sees himself as a survivor, not a victim.
"We're mindful that being survivors doesn't need to define and shape us," he said.
But that doesn't mean things haven't been tough.
With no fuel storage at the farm means he now has to make multiple trips to town with Jerry cans.
Having to set up a temporary shed on a neighbour's property to shear sheep had ended up costing as much time to shear 60 as it would have to shear 1000.
While they have been told that they needed to adjust to a new normal, Mr McGIllivery said theirs was a lot more demanding.
He said his faith in God had got him through the past 12 months. "If our hope was in returning to a new normal, we'd be despairing I'd think because there's moments where it just seems overwhelming," he said
He said the support from BlazeAid for the boundary fences, Moyne Shire recovery van and other community groups as well as his church community had been wonderful. He said church members spent the day cleaning up around the property and winding up fences.
While many of the burnt out vehicles, machinery and a shipping container full of tools still remain at his property, where his house once stood is just leveled gravel.
There are no plans to rebuild just yet. They have been knocked back for a fire concessional loan because they have no history of being in big debt. The sheep farm survived on their annual wool and prime lamb cheques.
The family owned their property and lived on a principle of living within their means. "We were pretty under-insured," he said.
"The things that we did have insured were only insured at market value not at replacement value."
The house wasn't insured.
His farm financial adviser has advised him to appeal the decision. "What we put forward was highly profitable, it's just that we don't have a big debt," Mr McGillivery said.
"The property is not mortgaged, and apart from current accounts, we don't owe anyone any money. But that's a disadvantage these days.
"They want a history of you servicing big debts."
So the family is unsure if they will rebuild. It's something that Mr McGillivery has done before. His property was burnt out in Ash Wednesday in 1983.
Back then they didn't technically lose the house because it hadn't yet been constructed, but the building materials were onsite.
He said he faced the prospect of maybe being burnt out again in 10 years if they did rebuild at their farm.
"My wife doesn't really want to go through setting things up again," he said.
Mr McGillivery said his first priority was to re-establish an income and make sure the property was profitable.
He said there was a biblical Proverb about getting your fields ready first and then build your house which he lives by. He said there was no point building a house if there was nothing to sustain it.
Mr McGillivery describes the St Patrick's Day fire that took his home and his livelihood as a "reality check".
"We realised our frailty and vulnerability because we weren't expecting a worst case scenario," Mr McGillivery said.
Having been burnt out in Ash Wednesday in 1983 and lived through a close call during the Framlingham fires of 2007, he thought that they were prepared.
They had 50,000 litres of water on hand and fire pumps at the farm but in a night-time storm with bellowing winds fanning the flames they were of little use.
When he noticed the Terang fire, the father-of-five told the kids to get out of their pyjamas and into fire clothes.
But just as they'd finished getting ready they noticed another fire in the blue gums about 200 metres away coming straight for them.
We went out through smoke and flames. It was pretty spooky. We had to just listen for the gravel on the road.
- Angus McGillivery
"We knew if we stayed here we could have been cooked, we could have been cooked in the car too."
They'd only managed to get a couple of birth certificates, wallets and a few pets but not Bert.
The fire had reached the McGillivery property within minutes after a powerpole snapped in Jack Kenna's property and ignited the blaze.
"Just these huge fireballs. The heat just kept coming. Things just melted," he said.
"We went out through smoke and flames. It was pretty spooky. We had to just listen for the gravel on the road."
They had jumped into the three vehicles they'd moved earlier that night out of the way of potentially falling branches from the strong winds.
Mr McGillivery was in the first car with his wife and youngest son. When they made it to safety they realised the third vehicle was not behind them.
"We weren't sure if they'd made it," he said. Their mobile phones on that night were useless, he said.
The Sisters fire truck on its way back to fill up with water for the Terang fire stayed with them until the third car finally did arrive.
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